Miles Christi

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." -Ephesians 6:10&11

Saturday, June 03, 2006

This morning I got the chance to go to confession to an amazing priest. He is so Christ-like and gentle. He told me that Jesus loves me. It sounds so simple, but to actually hear it and hear the words of absolution is beyond words. I understand more every time why we have the sacrament of penance. Jesus created us as sensual human beings, and He works through those senses. I can tell Jesus as often as I want that I'm sorry, but it's nothing like hearing in return that He forgives you. Father Straub taught me a simple prayer by St. Alphonsus and told me to say it often. "My Jesus, my all. You love me, and I love you." He reminded me that it was important to make sure I said the "you love me" before I said "and I love you" because Jesus loved us first. He loves us not because we love Him, and He will never stop loving us no matter how we fail. All day long, I've been in bliss thinking about this. I feel so free and happy. The thought came to me that maybe we wouldn't struggle so much with scrupulosity (seeing sin where there is none) or laxity (not seeing sin where there is sin) if we really knew and believed Jesus' love for us. "Love casts out all fear." With complete trust in Jesus, I would never have a crippling fear of sin, because I know that Christ sees my intentions and when I do fall, He wants me to come back to Him more than I could ever desire to be back in His arms. I would never be careless with sin because I would desire to respond to Jesus's love by pleasing Him, sort of like a little girl happily bringing a flower for her daddy just to make Him happy. It's a free and joyful giving. Of course, we're not perfect and will most likely struggle for the rest of our lives to stay in the center following Jesus every step of the way. I know I certainly do. ;)

1 Comments:

  • At 7:30 PM, Blogger Tim Malone said…

    Alicia,

    A beautiful view of confession with which I am completely in accord. It truly is a freeing experience, always seeming moreso than confessing your sins in private prayer. Also, I take the prayer that you have discovered to heart, there is freedom in that truth that we often do miss because we are so caught up in discerning our sinful nature. I love your thoughts and commend you on finally beginning a blog. You have so much to share with the world, and even tonight the Lord has shown me the power of this simple tool!!!

    God bless and keep you always, you are in my prayers, which are slowly changing to Spanish;)

    Tim (from Arequipa, PerĂº)

     

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